Good day

Today must be my lucky day. I got three separate phone calls today about jobs, one of them was actually an offer, which I readily accepted. Wallyworld is fun, but this grass is greener. Now to get this motormouth off the damn phone >:-|

Hurricane Ernesto

I can't say i'm liking this too much. Although maps have it coming just to the east of me (maybe Polk county), we still will feel this one pretty good. I dont have high hopes that it will take a quick turn like Charlie did a couple of years ago and spare us. If people are smart, wallyworld should be a circus right now. I think i'll be a smart one and go there RIGHT NOW. I need a flashlight....

apartments and condos

Lately I've noticed that apartment complexes are converting over to condos, on top of new condos being built. I'm not talking just a few sites. I'm talking EVERYWHERE. And even stranger, alot of them are around the USF campus. College kids arent really thinking of buying condos. A friend of mine stayed in an apartment that is probably 500 square feet. They were like "mini projects" to me. They kicked everyone out, and said basically "if you wanna move back in, i'll sell it to you for $90k. wtf?!?? There's an open lot across from the store I work at. Right in the middle of the hood. Crackheads. Homeless people. Constant police presence. At first the sign said "starting from the $140's". Then, just last week, it was changed "from the $200's". These condos must open the door for you when you drive up or something.

The other problem I have is this: when these "mini project" occupants are sent elsewhere, where are they gonna go? everywhere you go its a condo. Everyone cant afford to buy a condo or rent a house. I dunno, I just cant see "buying an apartment". some of the luxury apartments gone condo are nice, but I emphasize some. Next thing you know duplexes are going to turn townhouse.....

work work work sleep work work.....

I dont know if I'm a little insane to take on the office by myself. I guess the insanity goes away when I look at my paycheck :) 44 hours one week, 56 hours the next, holiday pay, premium Sunday pay, it's beautiful. I dont have to worry about but one lazy person working with me, and that will soon be a memory. I guess it feels good to have a very important role in the company, I guess I didnt expect me to be so tired at the end of the day.

I'm still alive and kicking tho ;)

More FIOS

For those of you that hate me for my FIOS internet, I'm getting FIOS TV today ;-)

that is all ;-)

Re-educating oneself...

Howdy folks. I've noticed I havent blogged lately. I'm still breathing, just sort of busy. Since I've changed positions and shifts at work, I operate more like a normal person, working during the day and (supposedly) sleeping at night. If you've been here recently, you'll notice I've been reading the same book for quite some time. I lied. I actually cracked the book open this week, and I feel bad for not doing so sooner. I'm already midway in the book, and I have to say, I miss doing this professionally. I enjoyed the work, I definitely enjoyed the bank account. Dont get me wrong, wallyworld has kept me satisfied so long as my bills get paid. Now, I want more.

I decided it's time to "go to school" again, but instead of going thru the hassles of registering and financial aid, I'm going to do it sitting right here. I started out by going to my favorite bookstore, but then found out half the books I was looking for can be downloaded as an ebook....for way cheaper (I think you know what i'm getting at). Only bought two books and have others on my hard drive. I've printed one book already, however, it taxed my ink cartridges pretty good. Thankfully I have three printers to do the job for me.

So now I have this new (and growing) library of material to get caught up on, and my short term goal is to be prepared by the end of the year to make a move. I dont want to rush into anything or not be savvy enough to handle the real world stuff. Being I've been out of the loop for so long, I have to be ready to show my stuff, guess I'll be looking for some hosting space somewhere for when I start building my portfolio of sorts.

So for now, back to my book.

Losing ones' boyhood....

Yep, Snowflake loses his boyhood tomorrow. Off with his balls. Buttercup isnt a horny cat anymore, but I dont want him getting any ideas with her, spraying up my house. It's bad enough he's ripped my curtains down twice last week. The pole is still hanging from the wall i'm so pissed.

Wonder if he'll get suspicious of the cat carrier.....

Caterpillars....

I guess they blooming a little bit late this year. I almost sat on one at work today, someone is like "look at caterpillar", i jumped up and ran, almost got hit by a car. Now some of my co-workers think i'm a little bit crazy. I am, but they should think that because of my caterpillar fear. Guess I have to find another spot to take my smoke breaks for about a month or so....

I'm truly a basketcase.

Got a scare today...

My granny was rushed to the hospital this evening. Apparently her doctor gave her some new pill to take, but it literally made her go unconscious. Thankfully my mother and brothers were there with her or the outcome would have been far worse. Whatever the pill did, she was sitting in her chair, eyes fixed. My brother didnt think something was right, him, his cousin, my mother all trying to wake her up. My youngest brother is really protective of her, and it really freaked him out. After the ambulance took her away he walked out very upset. I just got back from the hospital, she's doing ok for her 94 years. It's not her time yet.

Women and hygiene

This quick story reminds me of a story I recently read. I was in a Family Dollar store picking up some knick knacks and whatever, I go to stand in line. There's this lady returning some clothes. Now I know I'm not the only woman that would size up another woman. "she has on a cute outfit" or "her hair looks nice". So I get the impression she's a woman that takes care of herself. Good for her. But then she did something that caused her to raise her arm. All I could do is drop my jaw in amazement.......this woman had more hair under her arm that on her damn head, and she had long hair. Not only that, it was kinky hair under her arm. I had to look closer to make sure it wasnt part of her spaghetti strap shirt she was wearing. Nope. The shirt is yellow, this hair was black, with alot of matted deoderant.

So like the first story I read, I'll give this suggestion. Goto the HBA department of Walmart, second aisle. It's loaded with razors. I'll again turn a blind eye and let you steal a whole pack, and I really mean it.

All women: if you mom didnt teach you this, take note......SHAVE YOUR UNDERARMS!!!!!!

No More Blackberry?

Bye-bye, BlackBerry? | CNET News.com

Considering I recently just bought a 7100i I'm already pretty attached to it. Got a bluetooth headset to go with it. I dont think I've been into any of my phones like this one. Now I have to read about this stuff.

I don't think this is funny....I think I'm starting to twitch a little bit now.....

American Idol Fun

wtf!

I have nothing against a person and their interests or whatever, but I could only drop my jaw and tilt my head at this one. I wonder why people mistake him for a guy? (oh yea, and he cant sing)

Do you work here?

This is a question I'm asked on a daily basis at work, and it annoys me to hell!!! As some of my regulars know me, i work for a retailer (hint: they might take over the world). I love it and hate it at the same time for the same reasons: the people i work with and the customers.

I really like my job alot. Believe it or not it keeps me sane, or maybe it used to. I interact with people, help them out whenever necessary, and have alot of friends there. I get to see alot of cute guys coming thru too. Anyway, the customers. I love them, I really do. Sometimes, these same lovely customers make me wanna throw a fucking flag.

On any given night, I can be doing various things that would alert a person that I am an employee: my name badge, my "work tools", working on freight, standing behind the counter, on the phone, making pages, etc. In my mind, i'm thinking "everyone in the area should know i work here, in this very department". I was obviously mistaken. Every single night, I will get someone walk up and ask me "do you work here". Hearing the question usually brings a deep sigh from me, with a rather annoyed "yes" or simple nod. Some of them take it a step further by asking if I work "in this department". As much stuff I do in my department, it just annoys me how they dont think i'm working over there. Do these people think that ordinary people simply walk into this store and volunteer to put stock on the shelves?

Before anyone says it, i'll say it. Yea yea I know if it wasnt for them I wouldnt have a paycheck blah blah blah. Dont get me wrong, I'll do what I have to to make the sale, but it's all for naught when we have the thieving bastards that come thru there everynite.

I sat with security just recently, and watched how a guy (who obviously knows someone on the inside, or he's staked out the area pretty well) use a DEPARTMENT KEY to make off with a prize. Someone is definitely getting wrote up for this one. Either he gained access to this key at some earlier point or someone GAVE it to him. Either way, a head is gonna roll. I just stood in awe watching the tape. I'd like to personally thank that asshole for taking a part of my fucking bonus away from me >:-|

To my beloved customers: Please.....if you see me like you see me everytime you come there, I still work there, don't ask me again. Next time you ask me that, I might just come unglued....

New Orleans Mayor Ray Nagin: God mad at America, but also at blacks

WTF??!?

What is this guy's problem? So now hurricanes have specific agendas and target black neighborhoods? I think he been drinking some of that street water or something, cause he sounds like a real jackass...

just some babble

I guess this is my first post of the year, i'm 11 days late. I was gonna do the "reflection of 05" post and my "insight to 06" post, but I was kinda busy at work, and lazy at other times so it just never happened. Maybe one day I'll do one of them.

So I'm sittin here just doing my daily internet thing, reading up on news and a few of my favorite blogs, wishing I'd perhaps get my tax refund early. At least my employer is good for one thing, downloadable w2's weeks before everyone else. I walk into H&R Block to a couple of bored people waiting for a body. In a couple of weeks they will be swamped and my money will be well spent. This year since the bill are ok I'm gonna "upgrade" some things around my place. Been needing a new TV in the living room, get my HTS and maybe even XM Radio. I love listening to it at work since they have a working demo unit there. Get my car worked on, the tranny has been slipping still, needs a good flush. Might even do some upgrading on the computer, the motherboard has been acting suspect lately.

Remember the brother and the girlfriend that was living here? Well, being the nice sister that I am, I felt sorry for my brother having issues with her and not having somewhere to sleep, so I let him come back, now I feel as if I regret that. I know guys can be sloppy or whatever, but DAMN! And I've also learned that girl he messes with is psycho. I tell you one thing, if she calls my house one more time at 3am when i'm home and wakes me up, she's gonna meet Ghetto PCDEBB.....

The job still goes. I love it and hate it at the same time. I had a manager last week that was having some issues with her female friend/lover/fuck buddy. I guess in her heart that was her lover, but in her lovers mind it was just a fuck buddy thing. So she's over the edge, decides to buy a bottle of pills and pop them all. She's walking around like a zombie. Mind you, I feel for her, and now she's in the hospital under a Baker Act (see Florida Baker Act), but killing yourself is the punk way out. Hell, she's got keys to everything in the fucking building. She was having a shitty night, what if she went to sporting goods, got gun and ammunition and popped all of us off, if not herself? What if she simply just dropped dead on us? I'm mad as hell for her doing that to herself, and to us. I hope she gets her act together cause she wont be back to work for a while, if at all. Of course everyone in the store is talking about it, and apparently comparing notes on some of the foul things she's done in the store, so some believe this was her way out since she was about to get canned/reprimanded anyway. When I say foul, i mean messing with people's money and a huge deal of favoritism.

Other babble? Well, umm, I have another cat. Yes, Buttercup (aka Battle Cat) has a playmate. Buttercup is a fatass, she is just a real fatass. I'm surprised she has stamina to play with the new cat (Snowflake) since she's almost 2 and Snowflake is about 3 months or so. he's a cutie, but gets into everything. Too damn curious for his own good. Oh yea, and to show my geekness, they have their own webpages...

Buttercup's Page
Snowflake's Page

I hope I dont turn into that cat lady everyone hates to live by....

All of this should have kept you busy, I'll have more soon, there's always some drama to talk about, or something

It's finally over!

I survived the christmas season this year. People fighting over the cheap stuff they are going to bring back anyway. I havent been to work in a few days (thanx to the evil foot doctor......AGAIN), it will be fun tonite :-\

Parking lot salesmen....

So it seems lately that everytime I'm getting out/in my car in a random parking lot in the area, i'm being approached to buy perfume. This bootleg perfume has been around for years. I remember way back one day I tried it for about two hours and said the hell with it. Well it seems that they are back and they are back in full force! I went to the Walmart Neighborhood Market....they were there when I got out. I walked over to Big Lots, then to Family Dollar, and each time there was a different person approaching me...."excuse me, do you wear perfume?"...."No I'm allergic...."...."well our perfume is blah blah wont irritate blah blah...." no excuse I give them works. The last person that approached me again today, I told him I dont wear perfume, it's against my religion to not be funky all day long, altho I did have body wash in my bag.

These perfumes they sell is the cheap alternatives. "If you like this, you'll LOVE this" type stuff. They are riding around like mexicans packed in the car trying to sell this stuff. One night last week I'm walking into work, and a lady pulling out of the parking lot almost ran my ass over trying to sell to me. She then saw my shirt and my badge and I cut her off before she even got started. "No, I dont want none of that shit, I dont care how good it is, and to get off the fucking property before I get the little old man in the security car to handle you, and he's an ornery old bastard....." Needless to say I havent seen them in that parking lot anymore lol

Wow, new life is AWESOME!!

So today was a slow day, last day of my week-long vacation. I get home and my friend/co-worker/neighbor is finally having contractions, after being a week past her due date. I'm excited, I was getting tired of people asking me three times a day if she had the baby. So me her and the pappy head off to the hospital around midnite. She's 6 centimeters, so we start taking bets on what time the little one will be arriving. I say 4 am from the start, he says like 9am or so. few hours later she's 8 cm. they go ahead and break her water, it's about 3am. I'm thinking "i'm gonna win the bet". Well at about 3:25am, the nurse notices the monitor thing is acting up. either the little one is pissed cause her water is gone, or she's ready. doc checks her, she's fully dialated, it's time!! Mind you, I'm like "i'll stand over there" pointing to an area outside the room, but he talked me into staying, so I positioned myself near her like a coach or something. I havent had any kids yet, i'm not ready to see something messy. But geesus, she didn't give us time to decide!!

Two or three pushes and 10 minutes later we have 6 pounds 13 ounces of beautiful baby girl. I know the baby's name, but I dont know how to pronounce it let alone spell it. But man, I almost cried when I saw it. I had an experience I wasnt expecting to be witness to, but damn it was awesome to be there!

Here we go again....

Just when we thought we had escaped one this year........ 

Dealing with the needle

A few weeks ago I had to leave work early because of the massive headache that was taking over and go get checked out in the ER. My blood pressure was very high, and so was my blood sugar. They gave me a pill to lower my pressure then sent me on my way. My sugar levels bothered me so I scheduled to see the doctor this past Friday. Anytime I goto the doctor I go early, and don't eat anything past midnite the night before so I can get a fasting blood sugar. Well, after almost 12 hours of not eating, my sugar was still 427. I had the threat the last time I saw her, so I knew what she was gonna say: time to put me on insulin :-( I knew it was coming, so I didnt argue, but when I paid for the insulin, needles, etc, my wallet definitely wanted to argue!! I'm glad they dont have me on the regular needle/syringe. That made me feel like a junkie or something, so I have what I think they call a pen needle thingy. As long as the needle doesnt hurt going in.....

So now it's four days later, and I'm still having to get used it. I guess having a sugar level of 300+ all the time I was used to the unhealthy way. I've emptied my kitchen of things I don't need: the 10 pound bag of sugar my brother bought before his quick exit of my home, the 2 liter sodas, bucket of ice cream (grrr), stuff that now have skull and crossbones on the front. Now it's Crystal light....which isnt all that bad, and my box of blue packets of sugar substitute. Now I have to get into reading labels too. What fun. I even went so far as to get my ass kicked in raquetball with my brother. This was Sunday, and today I'm still sore. I'm warmed up now, next time i'm kicking HIS ass!! I'll let you all know so you can visit me in the hospital afterwards.....

this might be goodbye

just in case those that care, this might be the last time you see/hear from me for a while...if at all. nothin can describe what i am experiencing, it is way too much for me to bear. my heart is weak, my soul is leaving and my mind is lost. I cant stand to take any more punishment I have gone thru in recent memory, its just not fair. i've done all i can to do right, live right and have hope. i dont know if its bad luck or some curse, it's just not fair. To those that have been friends to me, bless you all.

oh HELL nah!!!!

So my brother and his lady are still here. Things are worked out and they plan to be out in a few days. Well, I think that might change in a jiffy.

I am really paranoid about my computer and all, i dont visit iffy sights, etc. The first thing i do when I get in from work is check my email. Well, there are two new icons on the desktop....poker icons. I open task manager and what do I find? two suspicious files, and KAZAA!!!! I open up IE and have three new toolbars. Now a full security scan is underway, Lord knows what I'm infected with, and I'm pissed. I've gotten over them eating my food, I've gotten over her leaving her bra and panties on my bathroom sink, but to fuck up my computer?? OH HELL NAH!!!!!

Update: the findings....

MySearch
Altnet
Toolbar.404search
Need2find
VX2
AllnetBDE
some overdrive file or something for MTV

i'm about to break.....

this is one nasty slob b*tch my brother goes out with. this isnt some f*cking fleabag motel. Don't leave your f*cking dirty bra and panties in my f*cking bathroom!!!!!!!!!!!!! You nasty b*tch!!!! When i leave for work tonite, you will not be in my house. So sorry!! >:-|

Why I dont like family staying over...

I have a family member that is staying over (supposedly a few days) cause they moved away from the landlord from hell. they stayed in a hotel a few days and now is at my house. I love my family and all, but I hate how they have no regard for you place and everything in it:

so they sort of show up yesterday and hang out. his girlfriend is also with him. I have nothing against her,sweet girl and all, but this is a time where she should be with her family IMO. Not to mention, a woman coming in another woman's house and using her toiletries isnt a good thing, you should have your own soap, shampoo, etc. So I goto work lastnite and all, they were cooking, he likes to cook and she was about to mop the floor and asked me if i had bleach. So I wasnt feeling too well this morning and left work an hour early. First problem I have is the A/C is on full blast. I just made the revelation that the A/C is the prime factor for my electric bill being extremely high. I turned it off before I left, it was cool in the house and was breezy outside. That instantly struck a nerve, i turned it off, hell they have my fan!! I goto the kitchen to make some choco milk...kitchen full of dishes they used the night before. A definite no-no in my house. I might not clean up but I don't leave dirty dishes. The sponge mop is left in the bucket of dirty bleach water. I goto ring it out and it falls apart in my hands. Thanx. So I spend about an hour cleaning up the kitchen and put on my grocery list that I need a new mop.

I'm sitting here now, wanting to watch television, but to my surprise they are still asleep on my couch and the floor in the front room. Ummm, didn't you have to work today? It's 1pm for fucks sake!

They know my money is terribly limited, I buy myself enough food to last a few days, I don't have anything now. He's using my cellphone like a landline, not cool (and this is after having it on the charger or in my purse, he just uses it, makes like 8 calls in a row). I love my family dearly, but it can make things real ugly when you do stuff like this. I'm already struggling, dont add to my problems.

And to think, I never really said yes they can come on over. I'll try to the end of the week, but after that they must move on.

I"m now officially in heaven

I am currently downloading a large file, speeds are better than usual, but of course I can only download as fast as the server will send it to me, but here's my speedtest with the d/l going:

running 10s outbound test (client to server) . . . . . 1.10Mb/s
running 10s inbound test (server to client) . . . . . . 13.79Mb/s
The slowest link in the end-to-end path is a 10 Mbps Ethernet subnet

While not downloading it's even better

running 10s outbound test (client to server) . . . . . 1.20Mb/s
running 10s inbound test (server to client) . . . . . . 15.13Mb/s
The slowest link in the end-to-end path is a 10 Mbps Ethernet subnet

I have to work tonite and should be asleep, but how can I think about sleep right now? lol

He's here!!!!

THE FIBER GUY IS HERE!! THE FIBER GUY IS HERE!! THE FIBER GUY IS HERE!!

babbling....

So the gas prices are doing alot of ugly things these days. I personally thing there's a nationwide price gouge from the opportunists trying to make some money. Even read a local report that some stores are claiming to be out of regular gas (or even mid) and only selling premium, and actually have regular to sell, something about waiting for it to reach $3.50. I've usually noticed that gas stations in a part of town basically had the same price, with a variance of no more than, say, a dime. Now, stores across the streets from each other seem to vary more like a quarter or so (one store even has a 60 cent difference from a neighboring store!!).

lastnite i noticed alot of people buying gas containers. One customer was telling me how people are fighting at some places. One thing I expected to happen was alot of rampant gas drive offs. some stores are at least getting smart and doing "prepay only" all the time. I also noticed customers buying locking gas caps, because people are now stealing the gas right out of your car. this shit is getting crazy

I just got raped....

....but i'm fine. Went to the gas station and the sign said $2.77, said that lastnite when i went to work. Got off this morning running on fumes, and the guy "didnt have time to change the sign"....the pump said $2.88 when I was pumping. I'm hurting. I only had $5 on me and left my checkcard at home, so now I have a little over a gallon to replace the fumes :-( guess it's time to check the buspass rates as a backup plan

I've died.....

...and gone happily to heaven. I'm getting Fiber in about two weeks. that is all. (a bit of good luck for a change)

Well, looks like the holiday/vacation is over. Nothing is steering this one away from us. Luckily it got its act together a little late and wont be that strong, at best, the weathermen are talking a rainy weekend. And I live in an area where alot of spots here and there flood easily from a good 20 minute storm. This should be interesting :-\ 

What just happened here?

I swear there must be an evil omen in my life lately, nothing but bad luck and bad things the last two weeks, and it's only getting worse. I wake up this morning to find my 21" monitor has gone awry. Display totally screwed up, tried what I could, no go. So now i'm on the 17" from my other computer. Then my brother's computer that was all ready to go, for some reason, reaches a blue screen stop error on boot. It's been powered off for a few days, so I dont know what the deal is on that. No reason at all. I'm scared to even get in my car and do my business, it might not crank today (being the battery is almost gone).

I see I'm about to reach my point of just losing it completely. I don't need this at all :-(

my n00b computer using friends and family

I have a few friends with computers. Any time there is a problem, I'm getting a phone call. Perhaps it might be the full moon, but I've spent my time this weekend fixing just about all of them.

My brother's girlfriend has a fairly new computer. This is my first time fixing their computer. She said it became very slow after she got DSL. Her AV hasnt been updated since March and she had no firewall, i wonder why it's so slow. I have a thread over on dslreports that has a couple of logs and a screenshot attached. Interesting case, but all is well now.

The hard-headed one, that likes to disable firewalls because it blocks them from going to some sites. I had to explain to him the firewall is doing it's job and the site you are trying to visit is not a safe place to go. He was hell-bent on going to that site and he got pwnd for it. Well he calls me yesterday because he just has to bring me the computer. Then he gets mad because he calls me 3 hours later after i've gone to sleep and thinks I'm avoiding him. I work the night shift people, when you call me at 4pm it's like calling me at 4am. Geesh. It seems i'm having to re-install all the security apps AGAIN since the viruses have totally phucked them up, and uninstall Kazaa again because they simply wont let it go. Perhaps the RIAA needs to come knocking on their $250,000 door to get them to leave it alone.

Then this morning I got one that takes the cake. A friend of mine works in a little record store. I've maintained their computers for about 4 years now. One of their computers took a dump for some reason, ntldr file was missing. This computer has XP. I was asleep all day on Saturday, sorry, couldnt help it, i was dead tired. So instead of getting the computer to me like I asked, the girl that works there decided to get some guy she knows to try and fix it. Know what he does? He brings a Windows 2000 cd, for a computer running XP, and tries to do....God knows what. I get there this morning and attempt to use the Recovery Console and notice 2000. wtf? this computer doesnt run 2000!! While in the recovery console, I do a "dir" on both the C: and D: drive. D: drive has everything there, but the C: drive is empty. So her friend essentially wiped the drive and now all of their work on C: drive is all but a memory. Maybe this time they will act on what I've been telling them all along about backing up their files.

This, my friends, is why I dont' fix computers for my family and friends for free. They are making me work too hard for free!!

Things that really annoy me

I've realized that there are alot of things that annoy me. Some of the things that annoy me has caused me to be more annoyed at things that annoy me. I'm just.....annoyed!

• My cat. She annoys me more and more everyday. Ok she's cute and all, but i'm run out of things to throw at her. For example, I live alone. Typically, when I go to tinkle, I sort of just walk in and do my thing, and the door is usually open (yea, I've forgotten to close the door when I've had company lol). Every single time, she will follow me in the bathroom, every since she was a kitty. I quickly got her out of that, so now, when i'm sitting there doing what I do, she will sit in the doorway. I throw things, so now she will like peek around the corner. Irritating as hell!! And no matter where in the house I go, she just has to follow me. In fact, she's sitting a few inches from me right now. If I go in the living room, she'd there. Something else she does that annoys me is when she eats her food, she turns into a little kid and sort of plays with her food. She will dip her hand in the bowl and knock a few bits out on the floor and proceed to eat it. So when I come in the kitchen in the middle of the night (or day in my case), there's a bowl in the middle of the floor that I usually end up accidentally kicking to the other side of the kitchen. Then there's the litter box. I don't know what in the hell kind of business she's doing, but i'm sick of sweeping up shit balls that she's kicked out of the box. Her asshole much stretch alot because those shit balls are huge. At least she doesn't jump on top of the aquarium like she use to. Maybe the purple Zumbah is doing it's job. And no more jumping in the window sill at night. I guess the baby oil gel I spread up there makes her mad when she slips and falls down the wall lol.
  


• My job. Actually it's really not the job, but it's really....you guessed it, CUSTOMERS. Understand, if it wasnt for the (shitty) customers that come thru those doors, we wouldnt have business. But sometimes I have to rationalize, do I really want the customer to come in and do something stupid? We have deranged men come in, break vending machines, break locked doors and destroy half the front end because...well I dont know what his problem was. Or the customers that think I'm some stupid girl that doesn't notice that $100 bill with the running ink on the back and that feels like paper is as fake as a $4 bill. "Oh, i've had that in my pocket like forever". Yea whatever, next time let the ink dry first, kthnx. Or the customer that's in the store for 10 minutes, made one quick sweep of the store literally throwing things in the buggy to the tune of about $600, and expect that check to go thru. MMmmmmmmkkk. Oh and you silly tilly, that's not a car battery, unless you are driving a lawn mower! Pay attention when you are trying to score with that stolen check/empty bank account. Do you not realize when you write checks we take the money out of the account right then like a debit card? It's called technology (and this company wanting all your money right away)
  


• Bill collectors. This one will be quick. When you called me yesterday, I didn't have the money. When you called last week I didn't have the money. When you called every week before that I didnt have the money. The bill earned a spot on my credit report over three years ago...cause I didn't have the money. If I had the money or was making the money, you wouldnt be blowing up my phone. I'll save you the trouble, unless I hit the numbers I wont have the money next week. The place I call Hell doesnt pay me enough to pay anything other than the bare necessities I have right now. Leave me alone.
  


• Lastly, there's family. Lord knows I'm the one person that cares TOO much for family. I've called my grandma everyday for like the last 20 years, and if she doesn't answer the phone, I'm dropping everything to go over there to see if something happened to her. When I have, I share. Sometimes family doesnt care if you are struggling. Certain people just want you to "hook them up" for free because they're family. I work the graveyard, you know I sleep during the day. When I dont answer the door or the phone.....I'M ASLEEP!!! Leave me the f*ck alone while i'm asleep. I'm not fixing that piece of shit computer that I told you two years ago needed some major upgrading/repairing. Would you like if I blew up your phone or busted on your door at 3am? What you are doing is the equivalent.
  


• Oh, and one more, programming. I just hate when my code doesnt work and it takes me forever to figure out I didnt close a tag or make a typo in a keyword. GRRRR!!!
  

You know what, I don't feel so annoyed anymore :-)

Say hello to Brutus

This is Brutus. Brutus is a moonlight gourami (sometimes called platinum gourami). He's a fish silver in color with these long whisker things. Brutus is mean. I also have a few other fish, one of which is a Bala Shark. Brutus thinks the whole 30 gallons of tank belongs to him and him only. He likes to chase the other fish sometimes and taunt them with his whiskers, but he loves to terrorize the shark. I don't know why. I was just so quite bored and thought I'd just sit and watch him. Imagine how aggressive he is during fish food time! Oh, and I really love how the profile states that a well planted tank is ideal for this fish. Ideal if he likes to attack all the plants. I love planted tanks, all but one plant he proceeded to pull up from the gravel and snack on grrr!! 

what am i doing wrong?

I swear I don't know how much more bad things I can take in my life. I've driven around town for the last three hours, even crying, trying to figure out what the hell i've done wrong in my life to have all this bad stuff happen to me. I've struggled for four long years, I've tried everything I can think of to get ahead, but it never lasts. I swear I've done everything I can do, but I'm still struggling, but some people simply don't care at all. They still want to make life so much more difficult than it already is and take what little money i am making from me. Just the thought of that devastates me, on top of all the other mental issues I've had to deal with, I'm almost at the point of just saying screw everything and be done with it. You don't know how tired I am of feeling it or having to think about it. I simply can't deal with this anymore

Happy Birthday to me!

Ugh, what's so happy about it. I feel so old, each year it feels worse. I started out by going bowling, so I really cant say I didnt do anything, now I'm home and a bit tipsy, all I had was a shared pitcher of beer heh.

My brother is doing a little bit better, but it's still a struggle (thanks for all the kind comments and emails from you all). It seems like the authorities are sort of blowing things off, he's been trying to call the detective lady for a week and cant seem to get ahold of her. They need to fix his police report but that isnt really important, or catching the bastards that may have permanently f*cked up his vision in his right eye. That just burns my ass!!!

I think I'll get some sleep to see what I can get into for the rest of my day

I'm so f*cking mad!!!

I get a call from my mother at 1am lastnite to tell me someone jumped (attacked) one of my younger brothers Thursday nite. He just got out of his car to go into a restaurant where some friends where, and someone came from behind and knocked him unconscious, took his wallet. I cried for half an hour after that. To think someone would basically leave him for dead. I havent seen him, but i'm told it's not a pretty picture, he's really f*cked up. I could go on a murder spree right now (don't worry, i'm not that stupid, i'm just angry as hell, it's the anger talking). He may have a rough looking exterior, but is liked by everyone and would seriously do anything for you. There's really some cruel people in this world, I seriously can't stand it!!! It's just this mental picture in my head I keep seeing, him lying on the ground, and for how long who knows. His next memory was being in the ambulance. Was someone waiting for him? Someone follow him? Was he even possibly set up? When people do things like this, they can never realize the pain they cause to so many people, this is eating me alive

San Fran hosts 'Masturbate-a-thon'

wtf?!?!

Ok, this is, ummm, disturbing.......or is it?

WTF?!?!?!?!

Ok, you have elderly people that are struggling to get medication (or food for that matter) but sex offenders are getting Viagra????? What the bloody hell is wrong with this system? And you wonder why people get out of jail and do the same crap that put them there in the first place. That's like giving a sniper a damn rifle. You might as well give names and addresses to all the innocent children for these assholes.

And then the headline to the story itself is States may deny the Viagra. WTF is there to decide? HELLLLLOOOOOO I mean, DAMN WTF?!?!?

Lonely day

This morning I dropped Buttercup off at the spay/neuter clinic to get her fixed. She'll get her rabies shot and get a tag too. It couldnt have happened at a better time, because just lastnite she started with that moaning crap again. I must admit I sort of miss yelling at her to stop jumping on the damn aquarium

Lack of sleep makes you stupid....

Or maybe that's just me? So I haven't learned to say no to one of these jobs. This really is killing me, but the extra $$$ is welcome. So the stupid things? Well let's see, I can't type to save my life right now, I've locked the keys in the car twice since Sunday, I forgot to feed the cat one day, i'm doing various stupid things at both jobs. The night job I'm finding interesting ways to sneak naps or basically be missing without anyone actually noticing.....or at least I don't think they notice. I may leave the day job and focus on the night job, or at least I'm going back part-time. If she doesn't agree to that then, oh well. One job is killing me as it is, but I can't go on uncertainty on whether or not you still need my help. We'll see what happens.

Granny isnt feeling well, so {{{hugs}}} to her on getting better. She's still gettin up there!

checkin' in

I've apparently been too busy to talk about the goings on in my life. I recently decided to work a second job. It was part-time at first, but now I work all day there, and come in a couple of hours later at my night job. I don't know how much longer I will do this as i'm always very tired. I was sort of just "helping out", but hell, that office is a disaster. The accounting guy just up and left, but gets pissed when the owner cancelled his medical insurance. Uh, duh. She just called me up, and since the thought of some extra cash was enticing, I accepted the offer. I've found I can't handle two jobs like I used to. Even tho this job pays a little more, I'm worried about stability, and i've been at the other job for almost a couple of years now. Something for me to think about. Hell, I'm falling asleep as I type (took about 10 minutes to type this, i'm just that tired)

toodles for now

Ugh

My foot doctor is evil. A simple task of taking my mother to the foot doctor, I ended up with a painful toe. I can't take my mom to any doctors anymore, this is the second time. So she wants to see what it would look like with her toe without a nail. So I quickly volunteer by kicking off my shoes and showing her. Normally when he removes the nail he deadens the nailbed so the nail wont grow back, but part of my nail apparently did. She questions it, he sees it, "Hmm, it did grow back. I'll fix that today". I'm thinking no problem, he'll get the clippers or that little drill thing to file it down or something. Instead, he grabs two needles and rolls over to me. Oh lawd I know what this means! He jabs my toe to start the numbing process, he's grinning, mom's laughing....but not for long. Her turn was next. I only had one toe, she had three....AND the bone spur on top of her foot. Needless to say she laughed a very short time. But then, payback was on me. I thought it would be cool to watch him do her feet. I've never been weak at the sight of blood, but after seeing him do one toe and thing "interesting", I didnt feel so very well. I just sort of laid back while he did his thing. As long as I didnt feel anything.

So today is the day after, and I'm almost in tears for every step I take. I talked to her, and she isnt even hurting grrrrr. I guess I can fart around at work for a few days. what fun that will be :-\

Terri Schiavo is dead

Finally, now may she be at peace. I'm not watching the news until next week tho....

Read here
and here

Time to get healthy

Today me and my brother went and played raquetball. First time we hit the court together in a few years. I thought I was gonna die on the court, but now that I've come home and cooled off, I feel great! Over the weekend I was thinking alot about my health, how I look, how I feel. And I realized, how I said the beginning of the year I was gonna get my ass in gear, it's almost April! It was a most beautiful day out today, and it was a perfect day for it. According to fitlinxx I burned over 1000 calories, not bad for a first outing. I"m gonna make a committment to doing this daily. Year after year I talk about how nice I wanna look, and yet another year goes by. By this summer, or at least my birthday, I plan to at least be two sizes smaller, at the VERY least. If I stick to it and stay strong, I may be able to do better. I'm gonna commit to it.

I'm also gonna quit smoking. This is gonna be hard, but I have a few things I'm gonna try to help me out, including trying some mint smoking gum. I just realized I could save $100 a month if I quit. Geesus, I could pay another bill with that!

The added benefit to all this is I could save even more money. It could help my diabetes and high blood pressure, and in doing that, I wont have to pay for all the meds I have to take. This is gonna be great, I feel like doing some situps right now!!

Enough of this bullshit!!!

first someone wants Michael Schiavo dead, now the parents are in a last ditch effort, now claiming Terri has tried to talk and supposedly expressed a desire to live.

I'll just say this because the straw just broke. I dont care if Michael Schiavo has moved on with his life. I dont care if the parents want to hold on to her for 13 more years. I dont care if she simply wakes up one day and starts a conversation with the wall and does a dance. I've seen enough and I simply dont give a shit anymore. I think it's a damn shame that this situation has turned into a media circus that it has become. My fucking goodness, people are camping out at the governor's mansion!! i'm sorry, but my tax dollars to the governor can much better spent doing something else..... you got fucking child molesters stealing and killing children, drunk drivers not knowing when to say when. Perhaps I havent followed this from the beginning, but at what point did this become so important that it has to be on the front page of the newspapers every single day and the top news story on the evening news!??!? I'm at the point of where i'm fucking sick of hearing about it day in and day out. This should be a PRIVATE family matter. You have parents letting their kids get arrested because of protests! If you gonna pull the tube, then let her go to the other side IN PEACE AND IN PRIVATE. If you gonna keep reinserting the damn tube, DO IT IN PRIVATE. The whole damn nation does not need to be a part of this, I think she has suffered enough as it is!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't want to sound like a heartless SOB, but in a way I wish she would just die already. I mean, damn. Who would want to live like that? This has caused for some interesting conversation at home, I've told my mother and brothers, if the doctors tell you there's nothing left, no possible hope left, then they are to have their 5 minutes to say goodbye and to just let me go. No way in hell I could live like that. I'm sure Michael, being married to her and loved her, would know that she wouldnt want to live like this. I'M SICK OF SEEING THIS SHIT EVERY FUCKING DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Uhh

dammit blogger, get your act together, know how many times i tried submitting this damn post, or the things i went thru at home thinking my computer was the problem????

It's been a while since I've graced my own blog, just been busy at work, and sleeping. I hate where I work, I really do. If I wasnt the responsible adult that I am, I would have quit a long time ago. For the work I have to do, I am WAY underpaid. I'm still working on a change tho, not as easy as I would like, but I'm working on it.

So I remember having a conversation with someone, how some people pay out so much in taxes thru the year, and only get a fraction of it back, but then there are some that barely work and bring home like $5k on tax time. It's a bitch. Well, how is it that people get these huge checks, and are more concerned with buying cell phones (nevermind the one you already have, instead of paying that damn bill, you just rather fuck it up and just get new service elsewhere...to fuck it up later), digital cameras, big screens, etc, but not pay the rent or the bills? Looks really stupid when you are getting evicted a month after tax refund......(and lets take into consideration that it usually takes 30 days to process an eviction thru the courts, and most places wait at least a month or so before even going to the courts, you add it up). Yea I got a two bedroom, but i'm not taking roomates. OHHH don't get me started on that soapbox.....

Oh well, I guess I'll try to get some sleep and say a prayer before some other drama pops off

Best Ebay thread ever

Sometimes it does not pay when you cheat hahaha. Girl's got some huge ones I'll tell ya that. I wonder how she came to the conclusion he was cheating. What's even worse, what if he wasn't cheating and she is wrong about the whole thing?!?

As you can see I've been up to nothing special hehe.

Toodles until next time..

Ebay is still out of control....

It's bad enough someone would list something like this, but to actually have somone bid on an autographed bible signed by Jesus Himself is sad and funny at the same time.

::shakes head::

This isn't funny anymore......

Now after I went thru a week of moaning and asses in the air, this cat is walking around the house with the moaning again. She isnt doing a "face down ass up" like she was, but the meowing has started again. I dont know if it's the new place I'm in or what. When I scream at her to STFU she will just sort of start rolling around on the floor and purring loudly. She CANT be in heat again??!?!?!? Edit: Oh GEESUS I think she is, and the ass thing. This can't be right??

There's no place like home...

Finally got all moved in. I got boxes all over the house, but my computers are up and running lol. I'm still exhausted, and I'm normally off tonite, but I traded to have off Saturday. I should have not REMINDED my supervisor or I'd be sleep tonite. But I gotta make that money to pay da bills. There's a few job fairs this week that I want to check out. Everything I've wanted to happen so far has been going my way, so I'm happy for that. My new place I like it alot. I have more space. If I picked off all the BeBe kids that run up and down this street then it would be peaceful. As long as they dont be in my yard or mess with my car I'm at peace. I thought being so close to a railroad track would be an issue, but I have yet to even hear a train. If it's that bad I'm sure there would be a story on it.

Toodles...

Moving sux

Dammit, now I remember why I hate moving. The packing, walking up and down the stairs taking shit to the car. I'm exhausted. Well I was, I slept all day basically so I'm pretty rested up. Tomorrow morning I'm supposed to be moving the big stuff, the couch, bed, etc with some help. Which means I'll be without internet cause roadrunner wont be able to come out to the new spot until Monday. I don't know how I will manage to be without internet for that long. I should be busy getting the new place in order so I guess it wont be that bad. I'm just happy to get out of here and away from this dickhead of a landlord.

Moving on...

Things have been so-so lately until today. Not expecting it, but very glad it happened, I got an apartment today. Got my keys and everything. It's still in the ghetto, but I stay in my house when I'm home anyway so I'm not worried (might want to get a club for my car tho). It's a huge 2 bedroom and I even have washer/dryer hookups, which I'm elated about. I guess due to the fact that I rented with this guy like 10 years ago made it work. In any case, I'm blessed and very happy for the change of scenery. On the down side, I'll be packing and moving every chance I get for the rest of the week. If I get like my sofas and bed moved by Friday then that would be good. I cant wait to get away from this jackass of a landlord, man I just cant wait.

There's still hot pussy in the house, but she's calmed down the last day or so. I guess she realizes she's gonna be a virgin lol.

Pussy still on fire

This is by far the wierdest thing I think I've ever experienced in my life. I've kinda always known when animals are in heat, when a pack of like 20 males are following one lonely female. I just didnt know when they meow like that they are longing for some sex. Well, little did I know I was sort of making it worse. So anytime I get ready for bed, she has to jump on the covers so I can pet her and play fight with her for a few minutes and all. Scratching her stomach usually gets her biting me. Well.....this time she's in heaven, just stretching out and loving it. She wont keep still for nothing, just rolling and stuff like she is uncomfortable or something. Well, then, so I'm petting her like normal, rubbing her back, and then she gets down on her front legs, but her back legs are stretched and her ass is in the air. WTF!??!?!?! Does she think I'm a tom or something????? So by this point I"m sitting up in bed, looking at her, she looking at me, meow MEEOOOOOOOOOOWW, and she gets up and turns around, her butt hits my hand, and like OMGWTFBBQ a fucking WET SPOT!! At this point I'm out the bed with the lights on. Only then I realized what I've done, I've been basically committing foreplay on my poor cat, she wants some ass like nobody's business. I'm not petting her for a month, or until I get her fixed.

Take my advice, don't pet your cat when she's in heat.

Hot burning Pussy

Good Lawd have mercy on me. My cat is apparently in heat. She's been "moaning" for two days now and it's driving me out of my fucking mind. I'm trying to rest and get over this bronchitis, and then dealing with her. I know yesterday when I opened the door she darted out there and she's never done that. I'll be damned if she gets with one of these nasty strays I see hanging around here. She keep this up and I'm gonna cool her off....

Good days

It seems I've had some better luck over the last couple of weeks. I finally got my car, so that means everyday I'm taking care of something. I'm doing my normal ritual after getting a car by going and getting this and that fixed/checked. I'll get the window lift motor put in in a couple of days for my front window, and i'll get a brake inspection. Car runs beautifully, no problems. I'm truly blessed. I thought I'd have to pay full price for a brand new plate, but I was able to pay for a duplicate plate, so I saved about $100 there. Saved another $100 for getting the window fixed too. I'm happy right now. Still havent done everything on my list, but I'm still happy, and very blessed (and thankful).

Now if I could just get over this very nasty chest cold I have, I cant breathe sometimes and it's almosy unbearable at times.

Getting better

After having to walk to work and catch the bus everywhere, I finally got me some wheels. I feel like I got my first car. I got off work this morning and drove around for almost an hour in pouring rain, couldnt decide if I should get the oil change or not. Didnt feel like going all across town to do it. Jiffy Lube rapes you just to drain some damn oil. I'm tired, I honestly sometimes feel like they are trying to kill me at work. We get the blame for other non-responsible people and that's bullshit IMO. If things keep going good, then I won't have much more to worry about real soon. I'm tired, I'm gonna take another nap.

Starting off slow...

In my quest on getting this thing started, I've been cleaning today. My computer desk looks like a desk, I can actually see the surface now. I can see the books in the bookshelf too. While I was taking a break, I pondered a possible problem in the future. I've always been the type of person that liked to set goals. Setting and accomplishing goals made me feel like I was getting things done in life. Over the last couple of years it seems not much has worked in my favor. Anything I set out for never really worked out in the end. So now I realized that I'm a little afraid of setting goals. Hmmm, I may need some help on this, a game plan if you will.

This very well may be an interesting year....

Starting a new chapter

I intended to post a closing chapter yesterday, but for no good reason at all I just didnt. In any case, I reflect on what I've been thru in 2004. All I can say it was a long year of struggling. I kept the same job, the same shitty apartment, and the same car that finally went to heaven. I can't complain really, but there was/is alot of times when it really seems like I bottom out and I have to ask "why do i still try to deal with this shit?" Back in the day when I was struggling with things in my head, I'd get in the car and end up on the beach. It was something about being on that open water with the seabreeze that just seemed to put me at peace. I think I will start doing that again when I get back on the road. I've made a few friends in 2004, I became closer to a few of them, I lost a few friends or simply created a distance with some of them that I question if they are truly still my friends. As far as family, well, there's only one person who flows the same blood that I can say is there for me. Even tho this person is doing their best to keep going, they still do for me. For that, i'm eternally grateful and I wish there were words or someting I could do to show my gratitude. I pray I'll have that opportunity. Love you.

With the struggle I've gone thru, at the same time of wondering, I learned a few things on being stronger. I've learned a little about compromise. I've learned little on patience, that still needs work. I've also learned how to trust in faith. It's bleak alot of times, but it helps. I've picked up old habits too. Not really bad ones. I always could be found reading a book. Not so much as computer books (those will always be on the bookshelf), but different things. It's just a way to keep me at ease and not really worry about if things will be better next week.

One thing I plan to do before going back to work this week is "cleaning all the slates". I spend alot of time in front of my computer, and pretty much neglect the rest of the house. I look around and think "i need to clean up" but get instantly tired at the thought. I have many things that I dont need or dont use. Yesterday I filled two large garbage bags full of clothes and dropped them off to the salvation army. My mom suggested that I take them to metropolitan ministries, since they give the clothes to those that need them instead of selling them for profit like the salvation army does. I'll do that next time. (once i clean i hope to move, to make the slate even cleaner). I have a love/hate relationship when it comes to my job, so I've chosen an attitude that I'll love the job for the 8 hours that i'm working, and just dont dwell on it afterwards.

And one more thing....over the years my family has pretty much drifted apart. Everybody sort of does their own thing, but we never really do things 'together' like we used to. For christmas we all weren't together. New years it was always a given that the entire family (included extended) would be together to bring in the new year. I miss those times. This would probably be the hardest thing to do, but I'm gonna see if I can make it happen.

Now I have to turn in to get started on new things, such as getting back to church, which I plan to be at in the morning, so with that, I say goodnite.

They call me Big Toe.....

Tomorrow makes a week post-op. It still hurts a little and I still walk like an old lady. Those assholes at work dont seem to understand "light duty" and I seemed to go thru more pain lastnite than I did all week. I got one for them tho. I got over a week of sick time waiting to be abused....

Stuffs

Bah. So my hard drive is nothing more than a shiny paperweight. I tried everything that I could think of doing at this point. It was fdisk'd but would not format no matter what I try. I slaved it on my other system, windows would see it, wouldnt format. It's just screwed. The only real thing I lost was my email, some stuff in my documents and a few music files. Before it really shitted I was able to grab a few things. Thankfully I had a slave drive that had all the goodies on it, but what pisses me off is that the drive was less than a year old, and the place I bought it from mysteriously folded a few months ago (been good business for years). In any case I thought I'd find a 40 gigger or so, the problem is that I tried to do this on Christmas Eve. Every place I went to was packed like the world was ending. I just gave up and decided to use my slave as primary, and now I'm back in business. I guess a new hard drive will be on the tax refund shopping list. And oh yea, Maxtor drives suck. (this isnt the first maxtor I've owned that had just up and died on me, you would think that I would have learned). Life goes on.

This just sucks major ass

I can't believe this. My hard drive just took a shit, a MAJOR shit. Just somehow the disk is damaged, I can't even format the bitch. And I bought this thing less than a year ago from a company that mysteriously closed its doors a few months ago. I cant even do an RMA on it. I'm fucked twice, and I have to go and buy a damn hard drive. I have to rob a bitch just to do that, working at wallyworld doesnt really give me room to buy shit when it breaks, so actually i'm fucked three times. I could use the slave drive, but shit, I have about 40gigs of shit that hasnt been backed up or nothing on that drive.

THIS JUST FUCKING SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

uber l33t fashion statement 

OUCH!!!!!!

Ugh, I had foot surgery today, ouch. Removed a bone spur ouch. Had toenail removed on big toe, ouch. Ugh. The procedure went without a hitch, of course I hate when he sticks me with those needles to numb my foot,ouch. At least I felt absolutely nothing, but damn, the novacaine started wearing off like, 30 minutes after he finished. OUCH OUCH. At least the shoe he gave me is an uber fashion statement. So mom picks me up, and since today is Monday, it's her discount day at Bealls Outlet, that means some walking, ugh. I bought an outfit and sat in the car while she hit the dollar store. F*%^@. Then we decided to grab something to eat at the Food Court in the mall so I can start popping some pills. she just HAD to goto Spencer's to get a dirty birthday card for her cuddle bunny, arg. I went and sat in the car and talked to myself. Now that I'm home I've struck gold and found my Darvocet (altho I turned down the Rx to get some Vicadin) so I'll be happy in a short time from now.

My foot really does hurt

I need to pray

I don't know what my brother is going thru right now, but whatever it is, I hope he gets his head together and dont do something stupid he'll regret forever. Don't walk away from a good thing because you have little devils sitting on your shoulders pulling strings. Please.....I've been there. He's young and has some mistakes to make, but if you need guidance from a person with the experience, please get with me. You know i'm like a worrywart on steroids, so don't make me worry about you. OPEN YOUR EYES TO THE GAME THAT IS BEING PLAYED!!!!

People in this world are truly sick

stolen fetus

Someone was so desparate that they killed a woman and stole her fetus right out of her body. And what's even sadder is, in looking for the baby, how can you give a physical description? I hope the dumbasses are caught. I would find it strange for someone to turn up with a newborn baby out of the blue. sick sick world

update: they found the baby
I hope this SICK BITCH rots in eternal hell

Something aint right!!!!

So here it is, some 14 hours later after going to the podiatrist today, and my foot is STILL TOTALLY NUMB from the injection. I have what he calls a "fibroma" on the arch of my foot. So he's been giving me an injection to try to reduce it to avoid surgery. Well on today's visit, he gives me my shot and I'm on my way. My foot was numb before I left his office. It wasnt until later that I had to think about it......he never numbed it before. He knows how I hate the injections, so maybe it was necessary to please me or something. After sitting in ER for a few hours, the doctors there made me realize something. I think instead of him giving me whatever treatment he gives me (which would be alot) he gave me the novacaine instead of the treatment, which I would think you wouldnt need nearly as enough of that stuff just to numb the area. I can't fucking believe it. I hate to think that he would make such a huge mistake like this. If I have to wake myself up in the morning, I'm tracking him down in one of his offices first thing. If I had my car I'd be waiting for him outside his fucking office. This is bullshit!!

My foot is killing me

Really, it is. I got these fibroma things in the arch of both of my feet and they hurt like hell. He stuck this huge as needle to numb my foot, then stuck another huge needle in my foot to administer whatever to try and deal with the fibroma. He's against doing surgery to cut them out because they might come back. And now this bone spur has cropped up in my left foot big toe, so that means, toenail=off. So now I'm the only person that has no toenail on my big toes. But this spoiled my master plan of "being sick" on new years eve. Guess I'll have to goto Plan B. Well wait, actually it might work. I seemed to have a stockpiled amount of sick time waiting to be abused. I take my two days off, come in for, oh, a day or so, then say "there's a problem" and use my sick time for a week and a half stretching into the new year MWHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I might have a bandaged big foot for a few weeks, but i'll be bringing the new year in like two snaps in the wind (for a change, you know how long its been that i've celebrated on new year's eve?? and i'm not talking about sitting at home watching Dick Clark, calling relatives and hearing my grandma crying that she made it another year. My grandma is healthy albiet her latest conditions, she's gonna pass 100)

Dear Santa,

This year I've really been a good girl. I cleaned my room everyday, I did all of my chores, I even got a raise at my job. Well, I'm lying, I've made my bed maybe three times this year (why make the bed when you gonna get back in it?). Anyway, I have a couple of things I want for Christmas. I haven't asked for anything in so many years, so I think I'm deserving. Santa, I want a new job. I know there's something I have to do, and yes, I've done that, I just have to wait for the outcome of it. Can you get me a new job anyway? I'm not making a whole lot of money right now, so it would be really cool if I could get a nice job or something. Another thing is a car. I don't need a new car Santa, something dependable and maybe I'm picky, but I dont want something ugly. I need a cute car so when I'm cruising around town looking for hot guys....well, I won't get into that. But then here's a thought....why don't I just trade those things in, and you give me one thing. How about I get lucky? NOOOOOOOO not that!! You just get those six numbers lined up just right.....

Who the hell am I fooling?? I'd be just happy having New Year's Eve off to actually celebrate for a change. I lead a boring life. If it wasnt for this computer and a cable modem, I'd be quite postal right now.....I am serious about the job tho...

Sprint sucks

I can finally use my phone now after two and a half weeks. I called customer service yesterday and he at first acted like there was nothing he could do. I spent a few minutes getting ethnic on him, he put me on hold for a few minutes, then he was more that willing to help me out and give me credit. Now that Sprint is merging with Nextel, I wonder how things will change. Actually, my phone is still acting a little funny. My brother just called and said the phone rung like 6 times before I picked it up on the first ring. Tmobile is looking better everyday.......

More babble

Life has been boring these days. Probably because i'm working alot and sleeping any other time. At least I'm wanting a new hobby of sewing, I dont know why.

My phone still doesnt work. Today makes two weeks of my non-service at home. But I can send/receive calls in digital roam, which I won't be paying for either. My landlord still hasnt contacted me at all. I've seen him on a couple of occasions (he's seen me too) and he acts like I have AIDS or something. Oh well.

Just Babble....

So today makes day 5 of screwy phone service at home. I went to the sprint store, and I was told there was trouble with a cell tower away from me. Well, That was Wednesday, today is Saturday, and I still can't call anybody. I'm glad there isn't a raving lunatic breaking down my door to kill me right now. They WILL give me a new phone when I get back up there.

My landlord has made himself scarce from me. Monday morning I went and dropped of a letter to him, basically stating that I need to know his billing methods and asking him to show me this and my water meter. I walked right past him on the way to drop the letter off, and he pretty much looked right through me. I also went to the post office and sent him a certified letter, which I know he received the very next day. I wanted to take a jab at him about his nasty personal comment he left in his letter, but the lady at the Consumer Protection Agency warned me against that. I'll see what happens when I pay my rent next week. I'll put it in the door as I always do because I don't want to look at his snaggle tooth ass.

Another pissy day in progress

I"m glad I don't have like some dire emergency going on, because if I did I'd be totally screwed. For over four hours now, my cellphone has been screwed. No particular reason. It's been "looking for service" since a little after noon. No calls in, no calls out. I had to walk to the store before the phone would work. The freaky part is there is a tower right across the fucking street. I'm sorry, but I'm not walking a mile just to use my damn phone, I pay these bastards enough to get more than the song and dance they are giving me right now. This is bullshit!!!!

WTF do you take me for???

My landlord is a bonafied dickhead. Plain and simple. This whole water bill saga has taken an ugly turn. A little background: I've lived in this hole-in-the-wall since June of '03. When I signed the initial lease, the water bill is included. When I renewed in '04 the water was included. A short time after renewal, all the tenants go a note on the door telling us we will start paying water bill. Like hell I will. So it has gone unpaid. He can't cut my water off because there's only one meter to the building. He gets one bill then splits it among the residents in the building. That's bullshit. So fast forward to today. I get home to a letter with a personal threatening tone. I found out I'm not the only one.

On the bottom of the delinquency letter:
This is your final advisory concerning your grosly overdue water bill. If you do not pay your bill, the home office has directed me to extricate you from the dwelling. Personally, I am sick and tired of your disrespect concerning this matter, and your eviction will be one that gives me great satisfaction. The choice is your's. Keep it up!

Mind you, his spelling and punctuation needs a little work. I typed that letter for letter. There is no home office. This property is owned by two men. You can't "extricate" me from the dwelling for a water bill. You can't meter split either. He will very soon realize that he's fucking with the right one. Yea, I'm gonna keep it up alright!!!!! Revenge is oh so sweet, and it will be a dish served cold. Fuck you Pete!!!

This is NOT funny anymore.....

Maybe I missed something this morning, but for some reason, the remote control to my TV is missing. There is only two places that remote will be: right next to me, or in/near the bed. I've searched the whole place and it's nowhere to be found. I can't blame the cat this time. And the more fucked up part about it is that this TV needs a remote to change the channel, I can't go up or down on it at all. So I guess until I buy another one i'll be stuck with MTV....

update: I CAN blame it on the cat. I was about to plug in my TV tuner to the computer, moved the stand and there the remote sat....and this is one of Buttercup's hiding/pouncing spots. There's no way that it could have fell in that spot or been kicked there. She will be punished >:-|

Do females fart?

You bet your ass they do haha

But it's not "sunshine and kittens" as some women want to believe. And to set the record straight, I've farted. Had some room-clearing varieties, but it's only nature. Hold it in and it'll kill ya

What a shitty day

sorry if that's strong, but it's so true. My week has been bad, but today brought me to tears for so many reasons. for the last week my car has had some sort of problems, and depending who I ask it can be a simple or complex problem. It cranks but won't stay running, it sputters. To start, someday in the near future I will get some new plugs and wires, fuel filter and some fuel injection cleaner hoping it will help. Lord knows I don't need to be without a car. But i sat for 4 1/2 hours in the hot blazing sun. I got a tow to come thanx to roadside rescue with my cellphone. The guy gives me some gas, but then he leaves!! So I have to call back and wait almost another 2 hours for the second pass. I used two of my roadside calls for the same damn issue. Pricks.

The job is still a pain in the ass. Actually it's not the job, it's the management. They are making my environment right for going postal. I don't even want to get into it.

Then there's the living situation at my grandmother's. The house is owned by my uncle, my grandmother's brother. She's 93 and has a feeding tube, she really isn't doing all that great, so my mother lives there with her to help care for her in a home she's known for more years that I've been alive. Well it seems that he (or somebody) has a problem with her being there, so HE suggests she move and take grandma with her or put her in a nursing home. WTF?!??!?! can she not stay there in her home? are you kicking the both of them out? It surprised me to hear my uncle talk like this and some of the other things he said I just couldnt believe it.

then there's the job. Actually I dont even want to get into it either. My life is just a total mess right now I can't even think straight. It's just a mess

Election Day is here

I know it's early, but it looks like we are doomed for another 4 years. I cant remember following an election with so much controversy behind it. It just feels like a huge scam

Election 2004

I will be soooooooo glad when this election is over. Right now, every commercial is a campaign ad for someone or something. I'm sick of it. The mudslinging of course, but alot of dirty stuff too. Websites are being knocked offline due to DDOS attacks. Prank emails are plentiful (I received an email telling democrats to vote on Wednesday). Alot of "who will you vote for" polls are being spammed with bogus votes. It's crazy. You can read about it here.

Funny Stuff

I think I have a new favorite show on TV is. I was in love with Boiling Points, altho I havent caught an episode lately, but I'm watching Motormouth on VH1, and this is hilarious. In the future, I have to be very careful what I do in my car ;-)

Happy Birthday Grandma!!

She made it another year, and now she's been in this world for 93 years!!

Love you Grandma :-)

Like WTF??!?

I have a serious problem with THIS. Why do we give a shit about this asshole's health? Here's my suggestion.....open up his chest cavity, load him with dynamite and live grenades, close him up, toss him in a mine field.

And I bet we're picking up the tab for it too >:-|

OMFG

I didn't know cats actually EAT squirrels!!! They chase them all day long and never ever catch them, I'm walking up the stairs to go into my apartment and one of the (many) strays was chowing down on a dead squirrel!!!

:-x

Mount St. Helens is waking up again!

Mount St. Helens VolcanoCam

I was 9 when this thing erupted and I was living in Seattle at the time. I was sooooo scared when it happened, and watching the news and getting info where ever I can has me a little shaky again. They say it won't be anything like what happened 24 years ago, but you never know. Mother nature is sure angry right now!

What a totally PISSY day

Why does everything have to happen at the same time? First I'm STILL having to deal with this damn hurricane in a way I didn't expect. Today I decided I'd wash a few loads of clothes and rest a while before going back to work tonite. First, after all the rain, it got in the door of my car and has messed something up. I literally have to break into my own car because the thing does "catch" to let me open the door. So after going thru the motions for 15 minutes to break into my car, I go to the ATM and get some money. No problem there. Well maybe except the idiot that decided to walk right in front of me as I inserted my card. So I goto Family Dollar to get some laundry detergent and deoderant. I walked that damn store for maybe 15 minutes looking for it. They have freight and L-carts of freight all over the place. A lawsuit waiting to happen. The lady looked at me twice and turned to finish talking to her friend about her trifling boyfriend. So having an ethnic moment I say with much attitude "damn do you sell deoderant????" "oh it's over there.....so girl, I told his ass I'm going over to that bitch house......" I get my deoderant from the measly selection and quickly pay and leave. I'm still so pissed from all the action that I passed right by the damn store to get cigarettes. And I was gonna quit today too.....

So now I get home and load up my clothes. My neighbor stops me and says "you know they went up on the price on the dryers to $1.50". I'm thinking great, rape us some more. Then she says that instead of an hour, her clothes stopped drying at 30 minutes. WTF?!?!?!? It takes an hour to dry clothes in those thimble-sized dryers, so it's now really $3 fucking dollars to dry my damn clothes. So now he makes us pay water bills.....at damn near $30 a month. That's just from taking a daily shower, no washer and dryer, and a kitchen faucet that gets fixed every two weeks. I'm holding out so hard from calling him and telling those deadbeat ass fuckers to kiss my shitty ass!!!!

I guess the only solace I have is sitting here with a cat sitting...or shall I say laying down on my shoulder fast asleep. I guess it's better than her standing on my shoulder with her butt in my face >:-|

One of many downed trees in my area. This is in a yard behind my grandmother's house. It was open a little from Frances, Jeanne finished it off. 

I survived Jeanne

Well I can say that it wasn't as bad as I thought. Power went off about 8:20am Sunday morning as expected. The funny part about that was I was talking to someone on AIM, and was like "yea I'm just waiting for the power to go out"....10 seconds later *POOF*. Power finally came back on about 4pm today (Monday). When the power went out the storm was in the neighboring county to the east, the rain had been going for a few hours and the wind was picking up. I just sat at the desk and watched this huge oak tree sway back and forth. It scared me enough to where I made myself an area in the closet and got some sleep. It got hot so I ended up in the bed. It was still cool in the house so it wasnt bad. I ended up working lastnite which wasnt bad, I didnt have to sit in the dark at home. some minor damage there, the mesh covering in the garden center was ripped off and that's about it. I've lost all my food in the fridge again so that's something I have to work with. When I drove to my mother's house, you can go down any given road and see downed tree limbs, here and there some huge trees are uprooted. Polk county got it really bad (again).

I never realized how important having electricity is to me (and internet)

I'm getting sick of this.

The storm has not made a north turn yet, so the newest advisory has it coming right over my head, the exact path of Frances. This is just too much I swear. And OMG it's still a cat2!!!

It's that time AGAIN

I'm getting bloody sick of all these hurricanes. The store closed early tonite and we were expected to work until around midnite or so, but the store manager got us out of there before 11:30pm without even finishing cleaning up. Still amazing that customers are pissed about it. It's getting windy with minimal rain. I think I'll sleep now simply because I may not be able to in a few hours.

Love your kids? Prove it by beating them.

This is old skool, and I have to sort of agree. I got my ass kicked as a kid. today as an adult I still have flashbacks if I'm getting ready to screw up. Kids today are kicking their parents' asses, and that's just wrong! It's time today's kids start getting their own switches from that tree out back.....

The worse luck in the world

Apparently I need to get out more. My cable totally went out yesterday for no apparent reason. The TV I guess I can deal with, but no cable light on my modem sends me thru some changes. I went to work lastnite with no service. Then I come home this morning to find a cab wrapped around a pole in front of my complex, and my side of the complex had no power. Apparently he was run off the road by someone. I'm surprised I got power back so soon cause the pole looked split. I haven't gone back out to see exactly what was done. Guess I shouldnt complain. I have power and internet and the A/C is on :-P

Let us welcome Jeannie. Of course it's way too early to be worried, but us weary Floridians are watching it i'm sure. Tell you the truth I'm bloody sick of all the storms. The rain is welcome, but I don't want a skylite in my whole 2nd story apartment. We'll see how this one plays out

Well here's Ivan. After watching it for almost a week after Frances, it seems that we lucked out on this monster. I haven't heard from my friend in the Cayman Islands, but from all the reports it looks like he got hit pretty severly. But we're not out of the woods yet as there's something else to worry about :-(

From where I drove, the damage is sporadic. Parts of downtown were flooded earlier, but I think that has subsided. I wish I could say the same for my neighborhood. I stay a few blocks away from a major shopping mall, and it's under water. This is a pic from in front of the mall down the main 8 lane street that passes in front of it. The rest of the pics can be seen below.

Aftermath pictures

I survived my first hurricane....Hurricane Frances. Being in hurricane force winds is not fun but at the same time it's almost surreal. I lost power on Sunday about 12:50pm. At the time it really wasnt that windy when the transformer blew, but it didnt bother me, as there was an approaching hurricane. I spent most of the day sitting around. I tried to catch up on some reading assignments but just couldnt stay focused. I was totally exhaused but I couldnt sleep, so I listened to the radio. One call I just cant forget is a guy who didn't have power. He calls the radio station, states his area and he had no power for (at the time) about 4 hours or so. He also stated he drove around his neighborhood (bad idea), he saw no "major damage" and it was only raining. Then he goes into his rant and says "it's not fair". WTF??? Apparently his argument was that why wasnt the electric company out on a pole giving him his electricity in the 40mph+ sustained winds?? I had to LOL when the DJ quickly hung up on him, and spent about 10 minutes calling him different kinds of idiots.

Fast forward to about 8pm. With what was forcasted for the weather, it was already planned for me to be to work. At that time it was only raining with some gusts, but nothing we wouldnt see in an afternoon thunderstorm. My manager was running late, so I decided to drive around to avoid getting sleepy to see how things were. I was amazed that some gas stations were open. Those foreigners know when to cash in on opportunity, and each open station i passed was packed. Sporadic outages, I didnt see anything drastic, such as big trees down, but this is only about a 5 mile area i was in. We basically had a skeleton crew at work, two managers and five associates. Wasn't much to do, but I was able to maintain my weekly hours (these days I can't afford to miss any hours for ANYTHING).

About 11pm is when things got real ugly. Most of the day the worst thing I saw from my living room window was wind gusts, alot of foilage. Now things were looking like what you'd see on TV, horizontal rain. The front doors of the building was buckling under the pressure of the wind. I'm no meteorologist, but I could take a guess and say those were strong tropical storm winds, 50 or 60 miles per hour. It was wicked!!! At this point I feel like an idiot for being so dedicated to my job, but I didn't have power so I felt better to be at work anyway. In any case, we are getting the back end of the storm now, and it was totally different from what went on in the beginning. The rain was coming down in sheets, very very heavy and VERY VERY WINDY. You can hear it pounding the roof almost all nite. When I came home I made a beeline, and being it was still dark I was limited to what I can see. The pond across the street from work has started flowing in the street. Vulnerable flood areas are underwater by many feet.

I have to try and get rest, but I hope to get pictures if it isnt still too dangerous outside.

I'm still here. I haven't lost power, but a few times it made my APC beep, the CATV acted funny a couple of times. I have my A/C on full blast so if the power does go out it will be relatively cool in here. At the moment it's raining outside, a little bit of wind, but the worse of the storm is coming, as noted by my graphic. viewer call-ins from the Lake Wales area state that it's really deteriorating, alot of trees and power lines down, a lady had part of a tree come in her window. I really hoped this thing would weaken more before getting here, God help us

Hurricane Frances comes to visit

This storm is already causing problems, and i'm on the West coast of the state. The above link shows what just happened to my grandmother's house. This is not going to be a good weekend.....

The storm is moving in. This is a snapshot from CNN showing some boats being knocked around. I'm not sure exactly where they are, all i know this is West Palm Beach. They showed some pretty dramatic footage of a nice sized pleasure boat coming in, a lady ran from it, apparently this boat lost an engine, but the fact I cant understand, what were they doing out on the waters anyway? This storm has been public knowledge for days, so what is their excuse?

Hurricane Frances

I'm getting impatient now with this storm. I know that sounds crazy, but the watching and waiting is killing me. I'm already impatient when it comes to waiting, but this is just too much. Apparently I'm not the only one, as the lady on the news just said the exact same thing. I wish it would speed up for this reason, and for the simple fact that it's moving so slow and the rains along with it, the flooding is going to be a major issue, especially in my neighborhood. a quick 10 minute storm puts a few of the roads under water, even though it takes a few hours to drain. With this storm, it could take days or even weeks to clear out. I guess the term "up the creek without a paddle" wont sound too stupid right now.

Ahh the joy of being a college student. For the last hour I've been doing some assigned reading from The Wadsworth Handbook and I just had to find a break after reading 6 chapters. I guess that means I need to stop procrastinating. I still havent completed my reading for my Sociology class, and haven't even begun reading for my Management class (waiting on my book). I've managed to avoid having to do a Thesis on anything, but my number has been called. This actually might be fun!