Life is not being good to me. I'm going thru this "I'm a failure" routine, and this time I feel real different about it. I've spent almost a week on some code that I can't seem to get working. I love this job, and I'm real big on impressions, and right now I don't know what my boss thinks. by her own admission she said this particular project was pretty difficult, and I guess I'm the code guru that should get it working. I have to pray real hard tonite. My health can't take this.

apparently I never have much to say, but today i'm quite bored. I want to know who or what killed my cat. cute little fluffy black stray with a white patch on her chest that just strolled up one day at mom's house, over the months I got so attached to her. So I was finally at the point that I could get some stuff for her at home and was ready to take her. I only have to drive up and before I could get out of the car, she was right there. Well this day, she's nowhere to be found. 10 minutes go by. 20 minutes go by. At this point she usually reappears from somewhere, I'm getting worried. Hmmmm. Well I have to smoke a cigarette but they are in my car. On my way there, I just happen to catch what I could only initially describe as a black fluffy black garment at the treeline, under the bushes and in a bed of leaves.

::GASP:: It dawns on me......

She's just laying there. Flies are just starting to circle, so that says she wasn't there that long. I feel empty now, I feel like I lost my best friend. Mom says she was running around being herself only a couple of hours earlier. I don't understand it. I just spent about $70 at the pet store a few hours ago for her. Got her a cute little hooded litterbox, some toys, more food, and some Advantage, which is what had me there in the first place. I was going to put it on her so it could work before I brought her home the next day. Now it's all useless. I can't bring Dusty home now, apparently she's already home. So now I'll have to wait for another cute kitty to capture my now broken heart. :-(