With only 6 hours left in the year, I'll take a quick moment to reflect if I may. I havent posted in a while cause I've been busy changing some things in my life. After three long years, I finally left wallyworld for good. I took some time off to try a new job, and it's turned into something much more permanent, with good pay and great benefits. I just couldnt see myself going back. Me and the squiggly have broke up. Surprisingly enough, I havent shopped in there as much as I thought I would. I go there from time to time to see some of my friends and buy a couple of things, but not the 2~4 times a week like I normally would. I actually have spending money AFTER paying all the bills. Life is good. With the new job I still deal with the public, but these customers are totally different from wallyworld customers. I can handle them.
The year itself wasnt too bad. I saw some success in some of the things I was after, some things I still seek success that I've been after for many years. Instead of doing the traditional "resolution" I said the hell with waiting and started exercising. I'm not killing myself, but rather starting slow. My outlook on it is different from the past, so I think I may make it this time.
One thing I've struggled with for many many years is trust in people. I've been away from my exhusband for over 10 years, but the relationship was damaging, and I open up to people, but not at a deep level. That's something I want to change in 2007.
In the year 2006 I found my inner self changing. Things I had interests in have faded, I spend less and less time in front of my computer "piddling", and use it for basic day to day stuff. I've found new interests in things as well. Life is perceived a little different. Some of it I'm still trying to figure out. I think after realizing I'm getting older (and better) things mean something different to me now. And I like it. When I enjoy the outdoors, I enjoy it in a different light. My inner self feels good. The funny thing about that, a friend suggested I feel good cause I have much less stress that wallyworld brought. He's probably right.
While I'm thankful to bring in another year, I cant and wont forget what I went thru to get here. I've had better times, and Lord knows I've had worse times, but now as I take it day to day, I enjoy it like it's the best day of my life. Tonite I plan on getting with a few friends and enjoy some fireworks someplace in town. Just finished my hair, my clothes are ready, it's time to welcome 2007 with open arms!
RIP to a former colleague at wallyworld. God took her home on xmas day this year. She will be missed by many.
