I've died.....

...and gone happily to heaven. I'm getting Fiber in about two weeks. that is all. (a bit of good luck for a change)

Well, looks like the holiday/vacation is over. Nothing is steering this one away from us. Luckily it got its act together a little late and wont be that strong, at best, the weathermen are talking a rainy weekend. And I live in an area where alot of spots here and there flood easily from a good 20 minute storm. This should be interesting :-\ 

What just happened here?

I swear there must be an evil omen in my life lately, nothing but bad luck and bad things the last two weeks, and it's only getting worse. I wake up this morning to find my 21" monitor has gone awry. Display totally screwed up, tried what I could, no go. So now i'm on the 17" from my other computer. Then my brother's computer that was all ready to go, for some reason, reaches a blue screen stop error on boot. It's been powered off for a few days, so I dont know what the deal is on that. No reason at all. I'm scared to even get in my car and do my business, it might not crank today (being the battery is almost gone).

I see I'm about to reach my point of just losing it completely. I don't need this at all :-(

my n00b computer using friends and family

I have a few friends with computers. Any time there is a problem, I'm getting a phone call. Perhaps it might be the full moon, but I've spent my time this weekend fixing just about all of them.

My brother's girlfriend has a fairly new computer. This is my first time fixing their computer. She said it became very slow after she got DSL. Her AV hasnt been updated since March and she had no firewall, i wonder why it's so slow. I have a thread over on dslreports that has a couple of logs and a screenshot attached. Interesting case, but all is well now.

The hard-headed one, that likes to disable firewalls because it blocks them from going to some sites. I had to explain to him the firewall is doing it's job and the site you are trying to visit is not a safe place to go. He was hell-bent on going to that site and he got pwnd for it. Well he calls me yesterday because he just has to bring me the computer. Then he gets mad because he calls me 3 hours later after i've gone to sleep and thinks I'm avoiding him. I work the night shift people, when you call me at 4pm it's like calling me at 4am. Geesh. It seems i'm having to re-install all the security apps AGAIN since the viruses have totally phucked them up, and uninstall Kazaa again because they simply wont let it go. Perhaps the RIAA needs to come knocking on their $250,000 door to get them to leave it alone.

Then this morning I got one that takes the cake. A friend of mine works in a little record store. I've maintained their computers for about 4 years now. One of their computers took a dump for some reason, ntldr file was missing. This computer has XP. I was asleep all day on Saturday, sorry, couldnt help it, i was dead tired. So instead of getting the computer to me like I asked, the girl that works there decided to get some guy she knows to try and fix it. Know what he does? He brings a Windows 2000 cd, for a computer running XP, and tries to do....God knows what. I get there this morning and attempt to use the Recovery Console and notice 2000. wtf? this computer doesnt run 2000!! While in the recovery console, I do a "dir" on both the C: and D: drive. D: drive has everything there, but the C: drive is empty. So her friend essentially wiped the drive and now all of their work on C: drive is all but a memory. Maybe this time they will act on what I've been telling them all along about backing up their files.

This, my friends, is why I dont' fix computers for my family and friends for free. They are making me work too hard for free!!

Things that really annoy me

I've realized that there are alot of things that annoy me. Some of the things that annoy me has caused me to be more annoyed at things that annoy me. I'm just.....annoyed!

• My cat. She annoys me more and more everyday. Ok she's cute and all, but i'm run out of things to throw at her. For example, I live alone. Typically, when I go to tinkle, I sort of just walk in and do my thing, and the door is usually open (yea, I've forgotten to close the door when I've had company lol). Every single time, she will follow me in the bathroom, every since she was a kitty. I quickly got her out of that, so now, when i'm sitting there doing what I do, she will sit in the doorway. I throw things, so now she will like peek around the corner. Irritating as hell!! And no matter where in the house I go, she just has to follow me. In fact, she's sitting a few inches from me right now. If I go in the living room, she'd there. Something else she does that annoys me is when she eats her food, she turns into a little kid and sort of plays with her food. She will dip her hand in the bowl and knock a few bits out on the floor and proceed to eat it. So when I come in the kitchen in the middle of the night (or day in my case), there's a bowl in the middle of the floor that I usually end up accidentally kicking to the other side of the kitchen. Then there's the litter box. I don't know what in the hell kind of business she's doing, but i'm sick of sweeping up shit balls that she's kicked out of the box. Her asshole much stretch alot because those shit balls are huge. At least she doesn't jump on top of the aquarium like she use to. Maybe the purple Zumbah is doing it's job. And no more jumping in the window sill at night. I guess the baby oil gel I spread up there makes her mad when she slips and falls down the wall lol.
  


• My job. Actually it's really not the job, but it's really....you guessed it, CUSTOMERS. Understand, if it wasnt for the (shitty) customers that come thru those doors, we wouldnt have business. But sometimes I have to rationalize, do I really want the customer to come in and do something stupid? We have deranged men come in, break vending machines, break locked doors and destroy half the front end because...well I dont know what his problem was. Or the customers that think I'm some stupid girl that doesn't notice that $100 bill with the running ink on the back and that feels like paper is as fake as a $4 bill. "Oh, i've had that in my pocket like forever". Yea whatever, next time let the ink dry first, kthnx. Or the customer that's in the store for 10 minutes, made one quick sweep of the store literally throwing things in the buggy to the tune of about $600, and expect that check to go thru. MMmmmmmmkkk. Oh and you silly tilly, that's not a car battery, unless you are driving a lawn mower! Pay attention when you are trying to score with that stolen check/empty bank account. Do you not realize when you write checks we take the money out of the account right then like a debit card? It's called technology (and this company wanting all your money right away)
  


• Bill collectors. This one will be quick. When you called me yesterday, I didn't have the money. When you called last week I didn't have the money. When you called every week before that I didnt have the money. The bill earned a spot on my credit report over three years ago...cause I didn't have the money. If I had the money or was making the money, you wouldnt be blowing up my phone. I'll save you the trouble, unless I hit the numbers I wont have the money next week. The place I call Hell doesnt pay me enough to pay anything other than the bare necessities I have right now. Leave me alone.
  


• Lastly, there's family. Lord knows I'm the one person that cares TOO much for family. I've called my grandma everyday for like the last 20 years, and if she doesn't answer the phone, I'm dropping everything to go over there to see if something happened to her. When I have, I share. Sometimes family doesnt care if you are struggling. Certain people just want you to "hook them up" for free because they're family. I work the graveyard, you know I sleep during the day. When I dont answer the door or the phone.....I'M ASLEEP!!! Leave me the f*ck alone while i'm asleep. I'm not fixing that piece of shit computer that I told you two years ago needed some major upgrading/repairing. Would you like if I blew up your phone or busted on your door at 3am? What you are doing is the equivalent.
  


• Oh, and one more, programming. I just hate when my code doesnt work and it takes me forever to figure out I didnt close a tag or make a typo in a keyword. GRRRR!!!
  

You know what, I don't feel so annoyed anymore :-)

Say hello to Brutus

This is Brutus. Brutus is a moonlight gourami (sometimes called platinum gourami). He's a fish silver in color with these long whisker things. Brutus is mean. I also have a few other fish, one of which is a Bala Shark. Brutus thinks the whole 30 gallons of tank belongs to him and him only. He likes to chase the other fish sometimes and taunt them with his whiskers, but he loves to terrorize the shark. I don't know why. I was just so quite bored and thought I'd just sit and watch him. Imagine how aggressive he is during fish food time! Oh, and I really love how the profile states that a well planted tank is ideal for this fish. Ideal if he likes to attack all the plants. I love planted tanks, all but one plant he proceeded to pull up from the gravel and snack on grrr!! 

what am i doing wrong?

I swear I don't know how much more bad things I can take in my life. I've driven around town for the last three hours, even crying, trying to figure out what the hell i've done wrong in my life to have all this bad stuff happen to me. I've struggled for four long years, I've tried everything I can think of to get ahead, but it never lasts. I swear I've done everything I can do, but I'm still struggling, but some people simply don't care at all. They still want to make life so much more difficult than it already is and take what little money i am making from me. Just the thought of that devastates me, on top of all the other mental issues I've had to deal with, I'm almost at the point of just saying screw everything and be done with it. You don't know how tired I am of feeling it or having to think about it. I simply can't deal with this anymore