Pussy still on fire

This is by far the wierdest thing I think I've ever experienced in my life. I've kinda always known when animals are in heat, when a pack of like 20 males are following one lonely female. I just didnt know when they meow like that they are longing for some sex. Well, little did I know I was sort of making it worse. So anytime I get ready for bed, she has to jump on the covers so I can pet her and play fight with her for a few minutes and all. Scratching her stomach usually gets her biting me. Well.....this time she's in heaven, just stretching out and loving it. She wont keep still for nothing, just rolling and stuff like she is uncomfortable or something. Well, then, so I'm petting her like normal, rubbing her back, and then she gets down on her front legs, but her back legs are stretched and her ass is in the air. WTF!??!?!?! Does she think I'm a tom or something????? So by this point I"m sitting up in bed, looking at her, she looking at me, meow MEEOOOOOOOOOOWW, and she gets up and turns around, her butt hits my hand, and like OMGWTFBBQ a fucking WET SPOT!! At this point I'm out the bed with the lights on. Only then I realized what I've done, I've been basically committing foreplay on my poor cat, she wants some ass like nobody's business. I'm not petting her for a month, or until I get her fixed.

Take my advice, don't pet your cat when she's in heat.

Hot burning Pussy

Good Lawd have mercy on me. My cat is apparently in heat. She's been "moaning" for two days now and it's driving me out of my fucking mind. I'm trying to rest and get over this bronchitis, and then dealing with her. I know yesterday when I opened the door she darted out there and she's never done that. I'll be damned if she gets with one of these nasty strays I see hanging around here. She keep this up and I'm gonna cool her off....

Good days

It seems I've had some better luck over the last couple of weeks. I finally got my car, so that means everyday I'm taking care of something. I'm doing my normal ritual after getting a car by going and getting this and that fixed/checked. I'll get the window lift motor put in in a couple of days for my front window, and i'll get a brake inspection. Car runs beautifully, no problems. I'm truly blessed. I thought I'd have to pay full price for a brand new plate, but I was able to pay for a duplicate plate, so I saved about $100 there. Saved another $100 for getting the window fixed too. I'm happy right now. Still havent done everything on my list, but I'm still happy, and very blessed (and thankful).

Now if I could just get over this very nasty chest cold I have, I cant breathe sometimes and it's almosy unbearable at times.

Getting better

After having to walk to work and catch the bus everywhere, I finally got me some wheels. I feel like I got my first car. I got off work this morning and drove around for almost an hour in pouring rain, couldnt decide if I should get the oil change or not. Didnt feel like going all across town to do it. Jiffy Lube rapes you just to drain some damn oil. I'm tired, I honestly sometimes feel like they are trying to kill me at work. We get the blame for other non-responsible people and that's bullshit IMO. If things keep going good, then I won't have much more to worry about real soon. I'm tired, I'm gonna take another nap.

Starting off slow...

In my quest on getting this thing started, I've been cleaning today. My computer desk looks like a desk, I can actually see the surface now. I can see the books in the bookshelf too. While I was taking a break, I pondered a possible problem in the future. I've always been the type of person that liked to set goals. Setting and accomplishing goals made me feel like I was getting things done in life. Over the last couple of years it seems not much has worked in my favor. Anything I set out for never really worked out in the end. So now I realized that I'm a little afraid of setting goals. Hmmm, I may need some help on this, a game plan if you will.

This very well may be an interesting year....

Starting a new chapter

I intended to post a closing chapter yesterday, but for no good reason at all I just didnt. In any case, I reflect on what I've been thru in 2004. All I can say it was a long year of struggling. I kept the same job, the same shitty apartment, and the same car that finally went to heaven. I can't complain really, but there was/is alot of times when it really seems like I bottom out and I have to ask "why do i still try to deal with this shit?" Back in the day when I was struggling with things in my head, I'd get in the car and end up on the beach. It was something about being on that open water with the seabreeze that just seemed to put me at peace. I think I will start doing that again when I get back on the road. I've made a few friends in 2004, I became closer to a few of them, I lost a few friends or simply created a distance with some of them that I question if they are truly still my friends. As far as family, well, there's only one person who flows the same blood that I can say is there for me. Even tho this person is doing their best to keep going, they still do for me. For that, i'm eternally grateful and I wish there were words or someting I could do to show my gratitude. I pray I'll have that opportunity. Love you.

With the struggle I've gone thru, at the same time of wondering, I learned a few things on being stronger. I've learned a little about compromise. I've learned little on patience, that still needs work. I've also learned how to trust in faith. It's bleak alot of times, but it helps. I've picked up old habits too. Not really bad ones. I always could be found reading a book. Not so much as computer books (those will always be on the bookshelf), but different things. It's just a way to keep me at ease and not really worry about if things will be better next week.

One thing I plan to do before going back to work this week is "cleaning all the slates". I spend alot of time in front of my computer, and pretty much neglect the rest of the house. I look around and think "i need to clean up" but get instantly tired at the thought. I have many things that I dont need or dont use. Yesterday I filled two large garbage bags full of clothes and dropped them off to the salvation army. My mom suggested that I take them to metropolitan ministries, since they give the clothes to those that need them instead of selling them for profit like the salvation army does. I'll do that next time. (once i clean i hope to move, to make the slate even cleaner). I have a love/hate relationship when it comes to my job, so I've chosen an attitude that I'll love the job for the 8 hours that i'm working, and just dont dwell on it afterwards.

And one more thing....over the years my family has pretty much drifted apart. Everybody sort of does their own thing, but we never really do things 'together' like we used to. For christmas we all weren't together. New years it was always a given that the entire family (included extended) would be together to bring in the new year. I miss those times. This would probably be the hardest thing to do, but I'm gonna see if I can make it happen.

Now I have to turn in to get started on new things, such as getting back to church, which I plan to be at in the morning, so with that, I say goodnite.