They call me Big Toe.....

Tomorrow makes a week post-op. It still hurts a little and I still walk like an old lady. Those assholes at work dont seem to understand "light duty" and I seemed to go thru more pain lastnite than I did all week. I got one for them tho. I got over a week of sick time waiting to be abused....

Stuffs

Bah. So my hard drive is nothing more than a shiny paperweight. I tried everything that I could think of doing at this point. It was fdisk'd but would not format no matter what I try. I slaved it on my other system, windows would see it, wouldnt format. It's just screwed. The only real thing I lost was my email, some stuff in my documents and a few music files. Before it really shitted I was able to grab a few things. Thankfully I had a slave drive that had all the goodies on it, but what pisses me off is that the drive was less than a year old, and the place I bought it from mysteriously folded a few months ago (been good business for years). In any case I thought I'd find a 40 gigger or so, the problem is that I tried to do this on Christmas Eve. Every place I went to was packed like the world was ending. I just gave up and decided to use my slave as primary, and now I'm back in business. I guess a new hard drive will be on the tax refund shopping list. And oh yea, Maxtor drives suck. (this isnt the first maxtor I've owned that had just up and died on me, you would think that I would have learned). Life goes on.

This just sucks major ass

I can't believe this. My hard drive just took a shit, a MAJOR shit. Just somehow the disk is damaged, I can't even format the bitch. And I bought this thing less than a year ago from a company that mysteriously closed its doors a few months ago. I cant even do an RMA on it. I'm fucked twice, and I have to go and buy a damn hard drive. I have to rob a bitch just to do that, working at wallyworld doesnt really give me room to buy shit when it breaks, so actually i'm fucked three times. I could use the slave drive, but shit, I have about 40gigs of shit that hasnt been backed up or nothing on that drive.

THIS JUST FUCKING SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

uber l33t fashion statement 

OUCH!!!!!!

Ugh, I had foot surgery today, ouch. Removed a bone spur ouch. Had toenail removed on big toe, ouch. Ugh. The procedure went without a hitch, of course I hate when he sticks me with those needles to numb my foot,ouch. At least I felt absolutely nothing, but damn, the novacaine started wearing off like, 30 minutes after he finished. OUCH OUCH. At least the shoe he gave me is an uber fashion statement. So mom picks me up, and since today is Monday, it's her discount day at Bealls Outlet, that means some walking, ugh. I bought an outfit and sat in the car while she hit the dollar store. F*%^@. Then we decided to grab something to eat at the Food Court in the mall so I can start popping some pills. she just HAD to goto Spencer's to get a dirty birthday card for her cuddle bunny, arg. I went and sat in the car and talked to myself. Now that I'm home I've struck gold and found my Darvocet (altho I turned down the Rx to get some Vicadin) so I'll be happy in a short time from now.

My foot really does hurt

I need to pray

I don't know what my brother is going thru right now, but whatever it is, I hope he gets his head together and dont do something stupid he'll regret forever. Don't walk away from a good thing because you have little devils sitting on your shoulders pulling strings. Please.....I've been there. He's young and has some mistakes to make, but if you need guidance from a person with the experience, please get with me. You know i'm like a worrywart on steroids, so don't make me worry about you. OPEN YOUR EYES TO THE GAME THAT IS BEING PLAYED!!!!

People in this world are truly sick

stolen fetus

Someone was so desparate that they killed a woman and stole her fetus right out of her body. And what's even sadder is, in looking for the baby, how can you give a physical description? I hope the dumbasses are caught. I would find it strange for someone to turn up with a newborn baby out of the blue. sick sick world

update: they found the baby
I hope this SICK BITCH rots in eternal hell

Something aint right!!!!

So here it is, some 14 hours later after going to the podiatrist today, and my foot is STILL TOTALLY NUMB from the injection. I have what he calls a "fibroma" on the arch of my foot. So he's been giving me an injection to try to reduce it to avoid surgery. Well on today's visit, he gives me my shot and I'm on my way. My foot was numb before I left his office. It wasnt until later that I had to think about it......he never numbed it before. He knows how I hate the injections, so maybe it was necessary to please me or something. After sitting in ER for a few hours, the doctors there made me realize something. I think instead of him giving me whatever treatment he gives me (which would be alot) he gave me the novacaine instead of the treatment, which I would think you wouldnt need nearly as enough of that stuff just to numb the area. I can't fucking believe it. I hate to think that he would make such a huge mistake like this. If I have to wake myself up in the morning, I'm tracking him down in one of his offices first thing. If I had my car I'd be waiting for him outside his fucking office. This is bullshit!!

My foot is killing me

Really, it is. I got these fibroma things in the arch of both of my feet and they hurt like hell. He stuck this huge as needle to numb my foot, then stuck another huge needle in my foot to administer whatever to try and deal with the fibroma. He's against doing surgery to cut them out because they might come back. And now this bone spur has cropped up in my left foot big toe, so that means, toenail=off. So now I'm the only person that has no toenail on my big toes. But this spoiled my master plan of "being sick" on new years eve. Guess I'll have to goto Plan B. Well wait, actually it might work. I seemed to have a stockpiled amount of sick time waiting to be abused. I take my two days off, come in for, oh, a day or so, then say "there's a problem" and use my sick time for a week and a half stretching into the new year MWHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I might have a bandaged big foot for a few weeks, but i'll be bringing the new year in like two snaps in the wind (for a change, you know how long its been that i've celebrated on new year's eve?? and i'm not talking about sitting at home watching Dick Clark, calling relatives and hearing my grandma crying that she made it another year. My grandma is healthy albiet her latest conditions, she's gonna pass 100)

Dear Santa,

This year I've really been a good girl. I cleaned my room everyday, I did all of my chores, I even got a raise at my job. Well, I'm lying, I've made my bed maybe three times this year (why make the bed when you gonna get back in it?). Anyway, I have a couple of things I want for Christmas. I haven't asked for anything in so many years, so I think I'm deserving. Santa, I want a new job. I know there's something I have to do, and yes, I've done that, I just have to wait for the outcome of it. Can you get me a new job anyway? I'm not making a whole lot of money right now, so it would be really cool if I could get a nice job or something. Another thing is a car. I don't need a new car Santa, something dependable and maybe I'm picky, but I dont want something ugly. I need a cute car so when I'm cruising around town looking for hot guys....well, I won't get into that. But then here's a thought....why don't I just trade those things in, and you give me one thing. How about I get lucky? NOOOOOOOO not that!! You just get those six numbers lined up just right.....

Who the hell am I fooling?? I'd be just happy having New Year's Eve off to actually celebrate for a change. I lead a boring life. If it wasnt for this computer and a cable modem, I'd be quite postal right now.....I am serious about the job tho...

Sprint sucks

I can finally use my phone now after two and a half weeks. I called customer service yesterday and he at first acted like there was nothing he could do. I spent a few minutes getting ethnic on him, he put me on hold for a few minutes, then he was more that willing to help me out and give me credit. Now that Sprint is merging with Nextel, I wonder how things will change. Actually, my phone is still acting a little funny. My brother just called and said the phone rung like 6 times before I picked it up on the first ring. Tmobile is looking better everyday.......

More babble

Life has been boring these days. Probably because i'm working alot and sleeping any other time. At least I'm wanting a new hobby of sewing, I dont know why.

My phone still doesnt work. Today makes two weeks of my non-service at home. But I can send/receive calls in digital roam, which I won't be paying for either. My landlord still hasnt contacted me at all. I've seen him on a couple of occasions (he's seen me too) and he acts like I have AIDS or something. Oh well.

Just Babble....

So today makes day 5 of screwy phone service at home. I went to the sprint store, and I was told there was trouble with a cell tower away from me. Well, That was Wednesday, today is Saturday, and I still can't call anybody. I'm glad there isn't a raving lunatic breaking down my door to kill me right now. They WILL give me a new phone when I get back up there.

My landlord has made himself scarce from me. Monday morning I went and dropped of a letter to him, basically stating that I need to know his billing methods and asking him to show me this and my water meter. I walked right past him on the way to drop the letter off, and he pretty much looked right through me. I also went to the post office and sent him a certified letter, which I know he received the very next day. I wanted to take a jab at him about his nasty personal comment he left in his letter, but the lady at the Consumer Protection Agency warned me against that. I'll see what happens when I pay my rent next week. I'll put it in the door as I always do because I don't want to look at his snaggle tooth ass.

Another pissy day in progress

I"m glad I don't have like some dire emergency going on, because if I did I'd be totally screwed. For over four hours now, my cellphone has been screwed. No particular reason. It's been "looking for service" since a little after noon. No calls in, no calls out. I had to walk to the store before the phone would work. The freaky part is there is a tower right across the fucking street. I'm sorry, but I'm not walking a mile just to use my damn phone, I pay these bastards enough to get more than the song and dance they are giving me right now. This is bullshit!!!!

WTF do you take me for???

My landlord is a bonafied dickhead. Plain and simple. This whole water bill saga has taken an ugly turn. A little background: I've lived in this hole-in-the-wall since June of '03. When I signed the initial lease, the water bill is included. When I renewed in '04 the water was included. A short time after renewal, all the tenants go a note on the door telling us we will start paying water bill. Like hell I will. So it has gone unpaid. He can't cut my water off because there's only one meter to the building. He gets one bill then splits it among the residents in the building. That's bullshit. So fast forward to today. I get home to a letter with a personal threatening tone. I found out I'm not the only one.

On the bottom of the delinquency letter:
This is your final advisory concerning your grosly overdue water bill. If you do not pay your bill, the home office has directed me to extricate you from the dwelling. Personally, I am sick and tired of your disrespect concerning this matter, and your eviction will be one that gives me great satisfaction. The choice is your's. Keep it up!

Mind you, his spelling and punctuation needs a little work. I typed that letter for letter. There is no home office. This property is owned by two men. You can't "extricate" me from the dwelling for a water bill. You can't meter split either. He will very soon realize that he's fucking with the right one. Yea, I'm gonna keep it up alright!!!!! Revenge is oh so sweet, and it will be a dish served cold. Fuck you Pete!!!

This is NOT funny anymore.....

Maybe I missed something this morning, but for some reason, the remote control to my TV is missing. There is only two places that remote will be: right next to me, or in/near the bed. I've searched the whole place and it's nowhere to be found. I can't blame the cat this time. And the more fucked up part about it is that this TV needs a remote to change the channel, I can't go up or down on it at all. So I guess until I buy another one i'll be stuck with MTV....

update: I CAN blame it on the cat. I was about to plug in my TV tuner to the computer, moved the stand and there the remote sat....and this is one of Buttercup's hiding/pouncing spots. There's no way that it could have fell in that spot or been kicked there. She will be punished >:-|

Do females fart?

You bet your ass they do haha

But it's not "sunshine and kittens" as some women want to believe. And to set the record straight, I've farted. Had some room-clearing varieties, but it's only nature. Hold it in and it'll kill ya

What a shitty day

sorry if that's strong, but it's so true. My week has been bad, but today brought me to tears for so many reasons. for the last week my car has had some sort of problems, and depending who I ask it can be a simple or complex problem. It cranks but won't stay running, it sputters. To start, someday in the near future I will get some new plugs and wires, fuel filter and some fuel injection cleaner hoping it will help. Lord knows I don't need to be without a car. But i sat for 4 1/2 hours in the hot blazing sun. I got a tow to come thanx to roadside rescue with my cellphone. The guy gives me some gas, but then he leaves!! So I have to call back and wait almost another 2 hours for the second pass. I used two of my roadside calls for the same damn issue. Pricks.

The job is still a pain in the ass. Actually it's not the job, it's the management. They are making my environment right for going postal. I don't even want to get into it.

Then there's the living situation at my grandmother's. The house is owned by my uncle, my grandmother's brother. She's 93 and has a feeding tube, she really isn't doing all that great, so my mother lives there with her to help care for her in a home she's known for more years that I've been alive. Well it seems that he (or somebody) has a problem with her being there, so HE suggests she move and take grandma with her or put her in a nursing home. WTF?!??!?! can she not stay there in her home? are you kicking the both of them out? It surprised me to hear my uncle talk like this and some of the other things he said I just couldnt believe it.

then there's the job. Actually I dont even want to get into it either. My life is just a total mess right now I can't even think straight. It's just a mess

Election Day is here

I know it's early, but it looks like we are doomed for another 4 years. I cant remember following an election with so much controversy behind it. It just feels like a huge scam

Election 2004

I will be soooooooo glad when this election is over. Right now, every commercial is a campaign ad for someone or something. I'm sick of it. The mudslinging of course, but alot of dirty stuff too. Websites are being knocked offline due to DDOS attacks. Prank emails are plentiful (I received an email telling democrats to vote on Wednesday). Alot of "who will you vote for" polls are being spammed with bogus votes. It's crazy. You can read about it here.